So I'm still a little peeved over the
interview thing. Monday my sister emailed both my mom and I saying her supervisor wanted to talk about my interview. My sister's sup was one of my panel members. She also happens to be my mom's friend and interviewed my mom when she was going for her promotion.
The sup,
Gwen asked my sister if I heard anything. My sister said no and that Gwen looked kind of surprised and told my sister to have me call her. Mom got hopeful thinking that maybe I still had a chance. I told mom no, i don't. The next day, Gwen asks again if i heard anything. Nope.
This is where I got kind of annoyed. As one of the panel members, I know she knew that all of us who didn't get picked were not going to get any notification. I also know she knows I didn't get the job. I would think she would have pushed for us to get an email or a phone call. As of today, we got nothing.
Thursday my mom called me at home (I had Wednesday-Friday off) to tell me the announcement went out at work. Then she said I need to call Gwen to discuss my interview. I was silent on on the phone. Mom told me to stop being stubborn.
I gave a good interview. All my answers told them I could do the job and handle the responsibility of it. I felt so good about my interview that I swore I got. I have never felt like that about an interview. Even my mom told me my interview was good after I was done. My mom had told me her interview had sucked.
When I found out I didn't get, disappointment was an understatement. I seriously don't know how my answers could have shown the panel I wasn't qualified for the job. My mom told me to call Gwen. "Why" I asked, "So I can hear 'You didn't say the right power words', that I need to expand on my answers? I gave a good interview mom. I don't know what more they could have wanted." Mom started getting annoyed I was being so stubborn, I was getting annoyed at mom for pushing me.
I'm not as upset or frustrated. I am still a little sulky. I'll probably eventually call Gwen. I'm really afraid of what she's going to say. Because if she says what I'm thinking she'll say, I'm just going to get frustrated again. I swear the State has thee most
stupidest way of hiring people sometimes.
Joey came home yesterday and found me curled on the couch with red
blotchy eyes. He cheered me up some. Now that I got some of this off my chest maybe it'll help me not be upset. Sorry if I sound like a
whiny baby.